Twelve on Tuesday.

1.  I have 2 kids home "sick" today…for the 2nd and 3rd day in a row.   One should be at school and one should have been at school the other 2 days but should be home today.   Go figure.   It's that time of year….JOY.

2.  I say it roughly every other post but HOW is it that time of year already?

3.  My house smells delish…made pumpkin muffins this morning YUM.

4.  I was looking at some pictures of Zachary yesterday…recent pictures actual and I just can't believe he is going to be TEN.

5.  I have been tossing and good willing like crazy this week.   I think I probably do this as every season changes…I need stuff GONE.  

6.  We are still obviously in limbo land with the foster care…

7.  While waiting for Nolan to be older (sleeping thru the night…even?) Is better it's been a process…

8.   Nope…he still isn't sleeping thru the night.   Occasionally but even then it's not a full 10-12 hours of sleep.   His longest stretch without a peep is 10-7/7:30 and that has happened a small handful of times.

9.  I boxed up lego's the other day….Jakeb is kinda over them and Zachary and Gavin were never really that into them.  We have an entire plastic storage box full of them.  

10.  I told the cleaning people to not come this week…come in 2 weeks.  Not ready to completely say no more but it's really an expense we don't need to spend.  PLUS now that things feel a little more "under control" I am wanting to do it myself…they really don't do that fantastic of a job anyway, so I find myself doing some of it over again.   But if they would just come mop that would be great..because they do a rock star job on the floors.

11.  The boys did AWESOME on their report cards for the first 9 weeks.  Super proud of them.

12.  Jakeb has his first swim meet on Saturday…very excited for him!

Hello.

Did I mention that the hard drive on my computer died?   I feel like I did…no worries it was promptly fixed the very same day and due to my mad backing up skills I am fairly confident I didn't lose a thing.  I have spent much of today working on restoring my photo editing software and also trying to track down the product key to "Office".  I would like to also make it known that the customer service for both Adobe and Microsoft is junk.  Both got me no where and I was able to work out the issues on my own with less then zero help from either company.  I may have moderately ranted at both and then finally gave up and thanks to my friend google we fixed it.
I spent some time going thru some pictures the other day looking for something and realized that I haven't taken a picture with my "big camera" in months so I actually brought it along for our "pumpkin farm" adventure on Sunday.  Hence the sudden need to get my photo software up and running.
Nolan is all about animals…and was super excited to see them and watch them…his brothers were equally as excited about HIS excitement so capturing all of that was good to do with the "mama camera".
I have SO many pictures of Nolan and right now it's no big deal he's cute, he's right next to me all day…and his brothers are less "hey take my picture" so he gets more camera time.   But I know in a couple years I will be looking for pictures of the big guys and be kicking myself that there aren't as many.   So I am working on making sure to bust out the camera for their cuteness….despite that attention stealing baby I certainly DO want to remember all the cute and funny and silly things they do just as much.   And being that my memory is for the birds on every day events…pictures are how it's done.  And also this here blog….Baseball season is done so I am working my way back to some semblance of sanity.  At least for the next couple months.
Speaking of baseball the boys rocked out an awesome season.  Zachary's fall team brought in the championship for their league so that's TWO championship teams for Zman.  Awesomeness!   Gavin's team did great as well and they were so fun to watch and cheer on…Gavin could really take or leave baseball but at 7 I think that's allowable!
Nolan's 2nd birthday is so very soon and we are so very unprepared for the shindig we have planned.   As in I sent out evites and may or may not actually get paper invites sent.   For many many birthday's now invitations have been "painstakingly" tackled via my elementary photoshop skills…this year it may be a mad dash to Target to get something cute and call it a day.   Or it may not happen at all.   Tomorrow we will find out!  Somehow I let this one sneak way up on me….maybe it was denial that he is going to be 2?

Um yeah.

I know I say this all the time but I want to write here so much more often then I do but I sit down to type and "write" and my thoughts just float right out the window next to me.  I get so discouraged that I just don't "write" and wait until I can hammer out a "12" or a slap some pictures up and call it a day.  We are quickly approaching our 4th year here and while it feels right....it feels wrong.  Nolan was our first baby born "out of TN" and that's so strange....we are TN folks.   Goodness all 3 of the big boys were born in the very same building I was.  And wow apparently I care about that....and really?  I would never have thought that mattered and it doesn't but it does and doesn't.  I still feel like I blog about this move so much.  The changes and the new stuff and the differences and the sameness and how this is home but not.   How we love it here but.....
And we do love it here but 30ish years in the same place is a long time and adjusting takes a long time and soon I will think....TN is always home but GA is too.  In the meantime we fumble around trying to make this home and it's happening but 30 years is a long time in one place.  We sure love it here and the people we have met and, and, and....but, but, but.....  Exactly.
It's nearly midnight and today I watched a football game where TN vs GA on my own.  For the first time.  I don't watch football but lately anything TN I want to grab and squeeze and make my very own like it's mine and mine only.  But yet...I love being here and this life.  Still I miss so much of before though so much of what I miss is stuff that I would miss TN or not.   But GA brought Nolan and I would never ever want to change or take that back.   And so I will root for Ga and for TN and love them both...but always TN more.
So....Georgia is home and it feels just like that....a new home....a new home to learn and to love.  Even 3+ years later.
I am not sure my point here....just rambling like always and like normal.  Talk to me on the phone and you get much the same.  Jumbled thoughts and run on sentences and I am learning to love and to like that too.  It's me...always and forever.  Something I have been learning to like and love for a long LONG time.  Somedays it works and somedays it doesn't.  I think that's the norm for most....though they wouldn't say that but also they wouldn't say otherwise either.
That's kinda funny really if you think about it...this facade we lead others to believe and see.  One of happiness and "having it all together" but really...REALLY no one I ever talk to feels that way.  Except those that feel that way but really don't but just can't say it to themselves and god forbid anyone else.  And one time not too long ago that was me and now most days that isn't anymore.  And that's ok.  I am so glad...I hate the self imposed pressure.   Goodness like the last run on sentence or two.  I don't even like the pressure of trying to write properly...so I don't.  Rebel like that.   Or something like that.
ANYWAY.
Have a great weekend!