Focusing my energy.

Elsewhere. I can't obsess and drive myself crazy(and everyone around me!) with adoption talk--though I may still try just bare with me! So I am doing the whole exercise and better eating thing. Whew, guys it's hard.

I knew I wasn't a fantastic eater but dang....try cutting out foods and cutting back what you eat and you realize you eat worse than you realize. So yesterday I did a bang up job of keeping things underwraps...that is until we got back from soccer practice and I couldn't hang anymore and I scarfed down a mid-size bowl of cookie dough ice cream--curse you Publix for your bogo and a coupon. What? Can't pass up a good deal! And then a few handfuls of BBQ chips...darn Kroger and your free bag of chips coupon. But all in all I did pretty decent. Despite finding myself wandering into the kitchen numerous times in the day and also not realizing I snack that much. Though I think it's the whole "want what you can't have" thing making it worse.

Oh I did make it to the treadmill yesterday--2 miles, 30 min. on the dot. I am proud of myself for that.

No news on the adoption front--still waiting!

Progress is progress

The treadmill was my friend only 2 times this week. Tsk Tsk. However, I have done a bang up job leaving the Dr. Pepper alone. A crazy good job...on Tuesday I had half of a diet Dr. P--half because I can only handle so much sweetener before it's icky tasting. Yesterday we took the boys to a movie--Robert misunderstood my drink request and stating that I could cheat from time to time and got a Dr. Pepper for me. I did have some sips and after the 4th sip I realized I really didn't want it. So I didn't have any more....so while I didn't get on the treadmill many times this week I did skip the Dr. P many. I will take any step forward I can get.

I also realized a problem with any sort of weight loss and diet change people face. The idea that "you can cheat" I get this and I do think this is true. However I do believe it's an addiction. So until you get a grasp on your issue you can't cheat. In the past times I have tried to kick the soda habit---the cheating is what makes me quit trying. It just doesn't work. At least for me.

I am a huge Biggest Loser fan. And this past week one of the contestants went home and during that time was his birthday and he wouldn't even try a bite of the cake that was bought for him. Granted during that time he was playing a game on a show but it also made me realize that trying it was opening a door he was trying to shut. Trying to get a control on, that food IS an addiction. It makes it a bit more eye opening how really hard the struggle is, and I see it for sure. I am absolutely addicted to sweets and soda and it's really really hard almost impossible hard to not eat them. One it's every where. The boys told me that there is now a Pop Tart that is called Ice Cream Sundae---this is presented as a breakfast food. That's crazy. We don't do Pop Tarts but seriously hello I think foods like this are not helping many issues kids are facing today. Both behavioral, emotional, and physical. We eat our fair share of junk and I am trying really hard to curve that but convenience foods are very uh..convenient. That and I haven't been taught to know a variety of foods both by myself and as a child. Thru no fault of my parents as it's what they knew too. But when it comes to trying to change a diet it's really hard. You suddenly feel you can't eat anything...most because you don't like it and just don't know. We are trying broaden our diets and our children's but it's hard. Education is key so we are trying and learning as we go.